IBMer, Be a Wild Duck!

Hello, I'm incompetent.
This is a terribly disorganized piece.
That's because I used to keep a diary in high school, and some of that habit probably remains. It's fun to look at other people's 'dark histories' (embarrassing pasts), and I'd like to be on the side that provides that too. How about you all?
Everyone is the same in that 'you don't know yourself best,' and I believe that one's self is gradually established through exploration. If you think you know yourself best, you might have to suspect a disease of vanity and ask the myriad gods. Anyway, from the perspective of Shinto in Japanese history,
there seems to be a saying: 'God's power increases through human reverence, and human fortune is augmented by God's virtue.'...

Or rather, I feel that Japan's attitude of gratitude and humility comes from Shinto. Because there are gods everywhere, it's sometimes called a surveillance society where everything is monitored, to put it negatively. But thanks to that, toilets are clean everywhere you go, even supposedly 'rough' towns are reasonably clean, and you can drink water safely. There's even a God of the Toilet, after all. As a nation, it's the oldest existing country in the world, so I don't think it's something that can be easily dismissed as a 'bad culture'.

Well, even if I don't talk much about religion, I don't particularly believe in anything; if anything, I'm a follower of the 'Me-ism' religion.

Reasons for Starting My Own Website

I've always liked reading personal blogs, especially during my student days when I'd devour people's livedoor blogs or open bookmarked blogs daily, so there's definitely that enjoyment.
In a way, I might have developed a habit of reading tech blogs or something similar during that time, but I've never consciously thought about it. However, for those who are more formal, it seems to be referred to as 'input and output'.
What I think shouldn't be mistaken is that if it's fun, you should do it. Just as there are givers and takers, I feel that the balance between writers and readers is what makes it good. Somehow, the discussion of whether givers or takers are better doesn't matter; if there were no takers, givers wouldn't feel happiness, and vice versa.
I've read about this in Ray Dalio's blog before; it's similar to how the balance between left-wing and right-wing countries is maintained in today's era, what's known as the Golden Rotation... JoJo!!!!!

And so, if I host it myself, no one can complain about it. Japan is a rare country with little internet censorship in the world, so I don't really think about it, but at least I don't block domains or access from specific countries so that various people can see it.
And thankfully, perhaps because of that, I now have access from about 15 countries other than Japan.

On Qiita, there seems to be a certain standard for technical articles, and if I were to be judged as not meeting that standard and feel offended, I think there should be a place where I can write at the level of graffiti I saw on playground equipment as a child.
Humans are said to live longer if they have a place to belong, and I deeply feel that such things are important.
I always want to feel nostalgic listening to Libro, and I might forget it if I'm not careful...

It just occurred to me, is the line 'Distant Tibet, such topics are perfectly fine' included because of the 'Tibetan Freedom' movement at the time?

Leaving is Always Difficult

Well, I'm currently in the midst of discussing my resignation, and although I've already communicated my desired resignation date, I'm now troubled because the conversation during the meeting has turned into a discussion about continuing my employment.
And so, for some reason, I'm scheduled to have a meeting with a higher-ranking official next week. I was able to convey my initial message with the spirit of communicating directly, and although it might seem ill-natured, I plan to send it in text form today to leave a legal record, as not doing so could cause trouble for others besides myself later on.
Regarding this, I've continued part-time jobs even after moving, making commuting difficult, and even after saying I'd quit, I sometimes ended up staying longer than intended. So, I need to remember those times and make a clear break...

That's because in the past, I've been on the interviewing side, experienced people leaving, and also been the one leaving, so it's a difficult situation.
Generally, if you don't inform your direct supervisor, their management system might be questioned, making it their responsibility. So, it's probably better to speak with someone closer to management after your direct supervisor to convey your intentions, which would make it harder to hold your direct supervisor responsible. In any case, I don't have a family yet, but the other person does.

There are quite a lot of topics in these kinds of discussions that lack humanity, so speaking for myself, I believe one should never abandon a certain degree of human kindness, but it's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
I have my own life, and time once passed cannot be recovered. I always want to live happily, and I hope a good groove can be created in the moment. Wait, is that about a bar? Or Denki Groove?

I don't really think about it much, but a senior colleague at my current workplace told me, 'You've been coming to the office consistently, communication has increased, and it feels like the team has been functioning as a team since you joined,' so I'm glad to think that I at least created a good groove.
I guess I managed somehow, despite my incompetence... Work is always enjoyable. For example, I naturally find people who seem to be enjoying their hobbies attractive, and I like such people. I think if they naturally take a liking to you, others will follow suit. And so, having read past blogs myself, I want to provide something similar, and since only the future lies ahead, it's better to think about exciting things.

Be a Wild Duck, Not a Domestic Duck (Ahiru)

You never know anyone until you talk to them, and I believe one should discard any preconceived notions before speaking.
For example, no matter how strict a person you're dealing with, if you listen to the story of how they were formed, you might find out what caused it and what their principles of life are. I think there's a lot to learn from that.
As per the 'Wild Duck Spirit' of my beloved IBM,
Be a Wild Duck, Not a Domestic Duck (Ahiru), it refers to a domesticated wild duck that has grown fat and lost its ability to fly, becoming a domestic duck.
While it might be better for a company to have domestic ducks, the interesting point is that this principle is passed down as a corporate value.

The difficulty is that everything has pros and cons, and even the strong libertarian freedom of today has the restriction of 'freedom' imposed on it. Where does that responsibility lie? Freedom eventually becomes a restriction, and history repeats itself with new ideas of freedom emerging from that.
Two sides of the same coin, like Yin and Yang, or destruction and creation. But pain is always involved.
It's also said that human creativity increases when restricted, so I don't think it can be universally said that one should always be free, and I feel that way too. That being said, everyone's thoughts are different, so acting according to each person is best, but it comes back to the opening statement, 'You don't know yourself best,' so understanding oneself is even more important.

To Understand Yourself Better

I think this is the most difficult problem to put into words.
For example, for me:

• Understand my own life cycle
• Explore things I like
• Find what makes me feel happy
• Find a place I can call my own
• Talk with friends
• Actively talk with new people

And so on, I suppose.
Ultimately, I think everything is connected.
The reason I say "explore things I like" is because I don't think things I dislike should be recognized or created in the first place, so I don't include them here. Recognizing things you dislike becomes a strong barrier that narrows your world.
Most of the time, when I say 'I hate it!', it's a joke, so I don't mean it sincerely at all.

Talking with friends is a way for a third party to tell you what kind of person you are, and if you talk to a stranger and they seem open to talking again, you can perceive that you're probably seen as a friendly person.
Regarding "understanding my own life cycle," I don't think there's a need to force a change in your daily rhythm. I've also had periods of eating one meal a day, and regarding sleep, I sleep when I want to, and when I can't sleep, trying to force it only causes distress, so I feel it's better for mental health to change my mood and then sleep.

Most things are easier if you live life somewhat jokingly, and from an occult perspective, perhaps this world is just a sandbox-ified world composed entirely of 0s and 1s. If such a ridiculous world were true, it would be a laughing matter.
And perhaps people from another worldline are looking down and laughing. Maybe it's a world after the Third Impact.

"Yes, Shinji-kun, you did it all."

"Go, Shinji-kun!"

"Ayanamiiiiiiiiii!!!!"

By the way, I'm on Team Asuka.
Well then. Until next time.