What is Your Happiness? - What You Value in Life

Ms. Suwako and Mr. Ryo, who are currently using GNU Social, and the administrator of https://gnusocial.jp had questions about the concept of cypherpunk, which led to an exchange of opinions and various thoughts expanding from there.
My personal conclusion is that complete coexistence of everything is difficult, so it's better if each entity has a goal and becomes independent and decentralized.

Below, I will try to make an article by modifying what I wrote on 076.moe.
The first half is about the internet, but I think this can also be applied to the real world.

Mainnet
This is a capitalist internet where ongoing costs, including domain fees, are incurred.
It's open for anyone to see and relies on capital, so while advertising isn't mandatory for operators to cover costs, it's advisable for continued operation.

Tor and other onion domain networks
Depending on individual knowledge, users are limited by bearing their own electricity costs, which has both good and bad points.
Even considering anonymity, while there's dependence on each user's language, it allows for escape from current large capital and national dependencies.
Currently, it's a free internet.

After the underground internet of the early 2000s was lost, there's a possibility that decentralized systems could become mainstream, but how can we go even deeper?
I love things with a human touch, but if AI starts participating in SNS, how should we solve it? Can encryption solve the problem of distinguishing between humans and AI?
I love the internet, but I don't wish for a completely cybernetic world.
I love the service, such as the words exchanged from entering to leaving a shop, and delicious food. As a shop assistant myself, I take pride in providing such service, and I believe in it. (Of course, I think I'm a rather useless person, as I like things that are a very small minority in society, and I believe many people find the service I provide unpleasant.)

Happiness
Classical happiness is a balance of human interaction, delicious food, work, and being able to do what you love.
If you always eat overly delicious food, you might stop feeling happy about it, but if you eat delicious food occasionally, I think you can feel happy.
I'm not denying tip culture, as it depends on the salary systems and GDP of each country. However, good service isn't just about computers; I believe it starts with open source and being free.
For example, would you pay a tip for "Welcome" or "Thank you"? Those are free gestures that make both parties feel good and want to use the service again. Of course, there might be times when you forget, but errors are part of being human and a good thing.
So, if I can somehow afford more, I want to donate to people, and I believe that's something I can do to atone for inconveniencing others in my life, and it's also a reason why I want to work hard.

I apologize for being ignorant, but I want to learn various things from everyone to enhance individual abilities for real-world self-reliance and decentralization → especially from those on the darknet.
I believe my play and excitement lead to improving my abilities.
*My thoughts are constantly changing, and these are just my current thoughts.

Therefore, I have no bias towards whether the mainnet is better or the so-called darknet is better. It's everyone's individual values. The mainnet is more accessible, so it's natural that it has more users now. I believe that people who are willing to put in that much effort just to use the internet are limited in this world.
I believe the darknet expands my knowledge further and has increased the things I can personally enjoy.

Dependence
Additionally, what I'm thinking now is that it's best not to become dependent on anything.
Dependence on other people / dependence on money / and various other things.
If you were dependent on one thing, and it disappeared, causing you great pain, then having multiple things you like in a decentralized way might be a salvation for yourself. That would probably be called self-confidence.
In that sense, people often say, "Don't be a slave to money," but since we live in a monetary-capitalist world, I think it's unavoidable... What humans truly need at a minimum is food, and in ancient Japan, rice played a role similar to currency, so in some ways of thinking, that might be the ideal state.
However, I want money, not for brand-name goods or cars, but ultimately because I want to open a coffee shop. But that's a very tough business model, and considering the turnover rate for the kind of shop I envision, it's difficult. So, I wonder if I could somehow earn money temporarily and then manage the business by drawing down those savings...

Therefore, I believe that my attempt to pursue money was a significant failure, different from my past actions, and I regret doing something that didn't match the risk-reward.
I also tried to earn money doing what I love, but I realize that's difficult. While there's no happiness quite like being needed, if you take on too many free services and grow too large, you'll run out of time and money, and everything will collapse.
This means it's better to work now, earn money, and strive in an environment where you are needed, using your passions in a way that contributes to that.

Regarding Failure
For example, when you start a business or take out a loan for studies, you should, of course, consider the risk-reward. That applies not only to money but also to the necessary time and human relationships.
Failure can be a kind of success, because it means you are moving forward.
Even with food, there are dishes that were born from mistakes.

Thinking Positively Even About Depression
This is something I thought about in junior high school: why the number of suicides was increasing.
Depression is a lack of serotonin and adrenaline, which are brain chemicals.
This means that if you are dependent on these brain chemicals and their secretion decreases, you are being freed from that dependence. Perhaps that time was given to you, in a sense, to think about something, and to live quietly. Let's take it easy.
However, isn't it terrifying? That more people are choosing suicide.
As living beings, our original role and instinct is to reproduce and survive as a species. That is the primary goal.
Yet, choosing suicide threatens the survival of the species. It's something that doesn't happen in other organisms.
That's something that scares me when I think about the future, and for myself, dying is the scariest thing, but I somehow feel like I might die young due to health issues.

Self-Reliance, Decentralization, and Happiness
I believe that self-reliance and decentralization, as seen on the internet, can also be applied to the real world.
Individuals gaining power, becoming independent, and decentralizing can solve problems.
Your role is to align with what you want to do now, and if you can't make a living from it, then you should think about it at that time. In Japan, "if you don't choose your job," there are plenty of options.
I think being able to say, "I'll try it, and if it doesn't work out, I'll think about it then," is because I'm still young. Later in life, things will become increasingly complex, and it will be harder for anyone to adapt to the times.
Until then, regarding your happiness, the balance of money, time, family (wife/children or parents), and work must be stabilized while remaining unstable, just like a country. So, I think it's better to find something that makes you feel happy to be alive.
I plan to continue learning about what excites me and what I enjoy until I can no longer do so.